McGean

I sit and beg to just to hug or see him one more time, ive been doing everything he told me finally i let people know they cant walk over me im changing but hes not coming back. nothing i am doing is making it easier i work, sleep, and go to school i keep pushing everyone away cause i never wanna go through a loss again i never wanna love or care as much as i did towards him im left broken and numb, Things might of ended badly towards us but his happiness meant everything to me. Everything i think of our last words towards eachother kills me everything seems so pointless i dont wanna go to school, eat, or even breath half the time i just wanna be with him, to see him happy hear him laugh and know i have my best friend to walk along everyday, someone i know will never judge me and that ill always have to talk to... but i dont anymore and hes gone forever and i hate myself for letting him go. i hate myself for letting him walk alone. all i want is to say goodbye and hold him one more time and ill never be able to again i miss you owen i miss you more and more everyday you taught me so much and ill never ever forget you. You were so perfect in everyday and i hate the thought of you not being here. you will forever be my happiness and reason to get up every morning there will not be a secound that goes by that i dont think about you