I fell in love with you at 14, you were my first love and I always thought of you. Always. Pride kept me from you. I was in my own way for many years where I should have seeked you out, I looked for you often. My heart shattered when i found out. I never felt so much pain knowing you were forever gone. But I had the 2 most wonderful dreams of you after I found out what happened, where I got to hold you twice, its like God allowed me to see you and hold you and asking why you did it. It felt so real. You were so handsome and your hug felt so familiar and you looked so upset apologizing for what you did. I miss you Brandan, I truly thought you were the one I was going to marry. Hah. My love for you still carries in my heart, I hope God will let me look for you when I leave this earth so I could see you. Idk if you thought of me at all, and I'm not sure if these feelings were one sided, but just so you know, I did and always will love you. Good bye Brandan ❤️