Lisa, there are truly no words I can say to ease the pain you are feeling right now. I didn't know Tim well, but I know something of what you've lost. That hole in your chest, the feeling of being unable to breath, and the numbness that seems like it will never go away. The very best advice I can give....one day at a time. Your boys will help. They are not only a beautiful reminder of your best friend and husband, they are a reminder that life goes on...even if you feel like you don't want it to or that it shouldn't, it does. So as tradition says, I'm so sorry for your loss.